tuesdays-

early morning before the alarm rings my eyes open widely.
i wait silently for the alarm to ring.
impatiently stood to look at the clock.
i wonder why is it still so early.
i try to go back to sleep. it's difficult.
i turn and turn. unable to sleep.
i start to think. think about the possibles&impossibles.
did i really do what's right? did i really want it that way?
more&more questions. deep in thoughts suddenly
the alarm rang. dreadfully i dragged myself to the toilet.
thinking and still thinking. i've thought of many things.
reaching school. i wonder whether i've done all my work.
brought all my books. so on and so forth.
back to class. lessons started. cencentration wasnt working.
daydreaming in short. stared blankly. didnt really understand.
sneezed&sneezed. i'm getting sick.
NCC. no mood to change. took over cherlene.
part b's were cute. they were bored. i was bored too.
juniors taught drills. practically slacked thru out.
wasted my whole time there.
NCC i'm just practically wasting my time.
there's nothing for me to do. just walking&slacking.
only STAFF's got things to do. and the rest.
for them to look down on. whatever.
some childish kid on msn.
look at yourself before saying anything.
i aint perfect. you're worse.

i'm freaking bored. i feel i've changed. been having moodswings & tempermental & the hack care attitude. i hate it. but i just cant be bother. see.

9:49 PM